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Wednesday, 12 September 2007

  • Second entry today

    If anything the entry before this is a good prologue for this one.  I suggest you go back and read it before delving into this one.  As always this entry is dedicated to Marco.  Who hasn't enjoyed anything I've written on xanga in about 2 years but still comes back and reads them all.

    Theres always the next one.  Sometimes you know who she will be.  You always know who the last one was but the next one should be a surprise.  Unless your one of those awful people who can't be alone so they won't leave some one until they have a replacement.  My best next ones are always a complete surprise.  Up until it happens I usually couldn't guess who they will be.  My mind and if you'd like to call it that, my heart ( I dont like refrencing it here I think its BS) are very whimsical. 

    The next ones never know what they are getting themselves into.  The next ones doesn't even neccessarilly refer to a girlfriend per say as I haven't been in a "real" relationship, well maybe ever in my life.  The next ones refer to those unfortunately unlucky girls that I develop feelings for and put up with my sophmoric bullshit.

    However much like a Simpson's episode this entry will end in a completely different place than it started.  I have 4 great female friends.  I have many more very good female friends and for the sake of leaving one out I won't name them all.  Chances are if you are wondering you made the 2nd group and with any measure of awful luck you'll make this one.  However these 4 have all put in 3+ years of service and many hours of awful conversations perpetrated by both sides.  Any women that wants to deal with me will have to accept their existence because they are non negotiable.  Any past feelings aside they are 4 of the best people ever ( and the worst) and I've considered writing this for them for some time now.  Here it is.  The list and why they are on it.

    Kara- Kara is my friend because she has saved my life more times than Kal-el saved Lois Lane's.  She is my friend because very few people in the world think more highly of me than she does.  She is legitimately flabbergasted that all these women I develop feelings for don't understand me and have little to no desire to be with me.  I thank God that she is married because if not she would inevitably fall in love with me and thus ruin our friendship thus ruining my life to a degree.

    Sabrina- Sabrina may be the smartest girl I know.  I am quite sure that despite my claims otherwise I enjoy our conversations together as much or more than anybody else on the planet.  Her love of my father aside, she is possibly the world's best/worst person and a reasonable choice to be my backup plan if I'm not married by 30.  I think we already have decided on Livin on a Prayer as our wedding song.  Out of everyone she may have the best ability to make fun of me back and this lists is not lacking in people who are good at that task.

    Spota- Spota is the world's dumbest smart person.  Nobody will ever drive me as insane as she does because it may not be possible for me to think any higher of somebody than I do of her.  I am allowed to be self deprecating, she should not be.  She is 100 times smarter than I am and works 500 times harder thus accomplishing approximately by my math 50,000Xs more than I do.  They say friends are the people who know all your faults and still love you.  I'm not quite sure but I think that may sum up our entire friendship (going both ways) perfectly.

    Ange- Ange is the only person on this list that I ever "dated".  Ange is also the only girl I've ever dated that I'm actually friends with.  There is a myriad of reasons for this.  The most important being something she once did long after she swore off talking to me forever.  No girl before or since has ever had the balls to pull of such an act and I highly doubt any ever will.  She raised the bar ridiculously high for all future "exes" to become my friend.  Throw in the fact that she is an incredibly good person.  She has character, not something I say about everyone ( or really anyone for that matter).  Plus she is one of only a few people in the world and maybe the only one on this list that I truly think may get more out of our friendship than I do.  This makes me feel so incredibly good about myself that it actually may tip the scale back the other way.  It feels nice to be needed.  Plus she has the unfair advantage of being incredibly smart, cool and she used to make out with me when we were drunk thus making her at times my favorite person in the entire world.

Tuesday, 11 September 2007

  • Existential Joe observing himself and understanding but not fully grasping

    I am no longer the person who wrote the last 7 or so entries.  I am a bad person now who occasionally does good things to fool people.  Well actually I am 100% that person who wrote that stuff but I don't feel like him.  I understand why that person felt like that and I don't blame him one bit.  However looking back now I can hardly believe that I was that person.  It is eerily similiar to viewing the actions of a completely different human being and understanding how they feel but obviously not feeling the same way.

    Like I said I'm a bad person now.  I often say mean and hurtful things to people, actually I've always done this.  I don't neccessarily want to hurt people but I want reactions; good, bad I want reactions because reactions are the cause of true emotion.  They are a sign you made an impact and nobody ever forgets those who made an impact and I am greatly terrified of being forgotten.  I desperately want attention but the sickest part is I want it from people who aren't located anywhere near me.  I want to be remembered, unfortunately.

    I usually know exactly what to say to elicit a response.  Its not to destroy the validity of these statements, most are the truth.  Its just there is little to no need to say them.  I have expressed this sentiment now and ruined them forever but maybe I need the challenge.  Or maybe I need to stop and this is the first step.

Monday, 27 August 2007

  • Everything in your life is about how badly you want it

    Everything!
    Exclamation point neccessary.

    A person can put up with an insurmountable amount of crap if they decide they truly want something.  Because when you want something, crap is just obstacles you must overcome to get it.  You never question, is it worth it.  The second you start weighing pros and cons its over.

    People who claim to want something but didn't fight for it until there was absolutely nothing left never really wanted it that much in the first place.

    This entry makes no sense, please read the previous one if your looking for something that is any semblence of well written.

Monday, 13 August 2007

  • Mental Accumen and its relationship with true love or why i think True Romance is the greatest love

    DISCLAIMER- i realize it is very presumptuous of me to dismiss the feelings of people for "not being very smart".  This is not my intention at all.  This article is not meant to demean anyone.  It isn't even a whiny "ignorance is bliss" argument.  Its just an observation.  I of all people shouldn't critique people's intellectual abilities.

     

     

    I have said this many times.  I think True Romance is the greatest love story ever.  Better than Romeo n Juliet, Titanic and any movie my sister owns.  When pressed to justify my answer I have never been able to come up with anything beyond the following:

    It's about 2 people too stupid to do anything but love each other.  There are no deeper issues.  Hes a loser who works in a comic store and shes a first time hooker.  He loves her because shes the most beautiful girl who has ever slept with him and she loves him because well shes a fucken hooker and probably doesn't think anyone will ever love her.  They are both too ignorant to ever consider this is why they love one another and thus it makes them love one another unconditionally.

    This may make it sound like I'm arguing against the essence of true love in this film but I'm not.  I've found that some of the dumbest people I know are the ones who most often find themselves in love because they do not over-analyze it.

    Chuck Klosterman makes the following point in one of his books. 
    Whenever I meet a young, dynamic non-retarded American, I notice they all share a single unifying characteristic: the inability to experience the kind of mind blowing, transcendent romantic relationship that they percieve to be a normal part of living


    He is arguing a different point than I am but he clearly makes the distinction of "non-retarded" American.  If I use the term retarded in a much broader sense than it basically means that intelligent people have a more difficult time "falling in love".  There are many reasons for this and to me it is evident that seemingly more intelligent people are their own worst enemy when it comes to love because intelligent people think more than stupid people.

    It seems that anyone I know who claims to have ever been truly in love is never some one who I would immediatey classify as very intelligent.  Most people who I would classify as intelligent (ie smarter than me) always have a disclaimer.  "I thought I was in love".  "Of course I love her shes my wife".  "There are many definitions of love I guess I do in some way".  You see most intelligent people; who aren't smart enough to realize no such thing as true love exists, have inevitably over analyzed the very concept of love so much that it practically ruins it for them.  They have read enough books and seen enough movies and thought long and hard about the subject.  They believe it to be something so complex that they often will find themselves in a situation in which others would define as "being in love" and they won't acknowledge it because to them "love" has to be something bigger.

    A 5 year old when pressed to define love will ultimately give a completely different and more simplistic answer than a 21 year old college student who has seen too many movies and ultimately cinsidered the question entirely too much.  This seemingly proves my point.  The 21 year old being smarter than the 5 year old (assuming as much.....) has a more complex definition of love.  Therefore something very simple that the 5 year old would classify as love the 21 year old may perhaps dismiss.  This isn't to say that smarter people love "better" or "more truely".  If anything it hinders them because they spend so much of their life analyzing things and ultimately often end up overanalyzing their own feelings.

    Stupid people are often too stupid to realize that it isn't love they are experiencing but merely some combination of a myriad of other emotions including lust, fondness and an aversion to lonliness.  Smart people often overthink themselves and overlook what many would constitute as love because it does not fit into some complex notion of the word that they have defined in their head.

    So what is the point of all this?  Intelligence factors into life on a way deeper level than just school and work.  And that True Romance is absolutely the greatest love story ever told without question.

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